SOUL in DESPAIR

The curse is here. I don't know how will it kill me. It's attacking me from within. I'm dying every time the clock ticks today. Sh***t! I'm so tired and I'm about to explode! AHhrrrgggg! I guess I don't deserve this... This is unfair. I feel so down that I could even lift my feet to travel another mile. I'm tired and It makes me more tired when I could think why this is happening now. I'm almost at the peak. I'm almost there. I can see the stars. But now, I'm a climber looking' below. What's wrong? I can't think of anything. I feel my head stopped and my body became lifeless. I want a reason. A reason that will satisfy my thirsty soul. I need answers. Answer that are correct. I need the truth and I'm dying to discover it... Why is this happening...? I'm tired. I'm going circles now. I want a tear. I think a need to cry for a moment. I feel so heavy that I can image the world on my shoulders. It's been a while now. I want someone to talk to. I want someone to be there. It's been quite long since I felt this. This feeling that torments me within the deepest part of me. I want to cry... Cry so that I'll feel better. I'm tired... I'm alone... I'm empty... Lifeless... Why? I guess I'm dying. I bet I already miss the light and the tunnel. I hope to see you there...soon. If youill wait... Will you wait for me? In heaven...